peace and quiet

i started an entry here yesterday but it was too raw to cast out into the web. i packed up my bags and returned to livejournal to write it. i will probably use that from now on for more personal entries. specifically, ones sorting through personal pain and confusion. it's nice to have a writing space that is only read by former best friends.

currently sitting in the fine arts lab before orchestra. there is only a handful of people around and no one is saying anything. i haven't experienced such a beautiful silence as this in a very long time. it's nice, but just shy of a catharsis i so desperately need right now. if it were a few degrees warmer i would fix my bike tires and set out on a ride. i would love to take myself far away from here right now - if just for a few hours. so much commotion with classes and life. as long as i can hang on until next saturday, and if the trip actually happens, i will get my break in the form of a uk art department sponsored trip to the cincinnati art museum. be still, my beating heart. prayers to the gods of contemporary (and renaissance!) art to make it happen.

as for what lies beneath, i have been invaded by uncertainty. hopefully i'll figure it out soon because it's not something i like feeling.

my contemporary art professor introduced us to the band destroyer the other day. you should check them out.